I’ve heard it all.
I identify with it all.
I am definitely the definition of a plus sized woman.
However, what these words meant to me in the past is very different to what they represent to me now. What’s the difference?
As I’ve gotten older, I’ve shifted my perspective.
When I was younger, I allowed these words to define me as an entire person. So, it went beyond me having excess weight, it was the belief that I AM fat. I owned the words and the result was debilitating to my self-esteem. I would be ashamed to wear sleeveless shirts because I assumed that everyone saw the huge flap of fat that would go to and from as I walked around. I stayed away from stripes because I can’t possibly allow myself to look any bigger than I already am. I internalized every adjective associated with being “fat”.
However (<– and thank God for this “however”), as I got older I started to view myself differently. As a direct result of my growing relationship with Christ, I realized that those words, though descriptive to what I looked like, did not define who I am as a person. I realized that I don’t have to have a negative connotation attached to them. I can be big and fat and thick and plus sized and still be pretty amazing!
Now, don’t get me wrong – although I’ve changed my mindset it doesn’t mean that I don’t have moments where I look in the mirror and go “ugh Celeste, that belly fat is cray!” lol but I now understand that I’m STILL beautiful despite it all and if I’m so mad about that (and every other area of fat on my body) then I have to work toward getting rid of it. But, fat or not –
I am still amazing.
I am still fearfully and wonderfully made.
I am still gorgeous.
I am still made in the image and likeness of a perfect God.
I want you to grab a hold of these words. Know that despite your physical flaws, you are still ALL THAT AND A BAG OF CHIPS!! Legit! 🙂
I hope this encourages you to embrace and love your body and to believe the awesomeness that God thinks about you!!